It’s been quite some time, hasn’t it?
And even though I am very much aware that nobody cares about this blog, my need to update a little something in the middle of this sleepless night is just too big. So, here goes.
I admit that lately I’ve been very VERY lazy to update my fanfics. Oh my, that sentence itself is an understatement. I said to people “I’m on hiatus since I’m preparing for university entrance test.” Well, that is not a lie, but how long has it been since I’ve regained my freedom again? Oh yeah, around 5 months or so. And not a single update at ff.net. Mmhmm, been real bad aren’t I? Tsk, tsk.
Now, while I’m (kinda) ashamed of myself, I have no other choice but coming out clean to you guys. First reason, I’m too lazy, second, I’m a dedicated procrastinator, third, I’m lazy. Yes, I’m that bad, but also not that bad either. You see, my journey into my desired university was not a really ideal one. I fought, yes I really did fight hard. But before I finally got accepted, pssshhhhh, boy you don’t want to feel how it’s like to be me. So, let me warn you guys first (assuming that there really is a very bored someone who’s actually kind enough to spare some time just to read this) that starting from the line below, it’s going to be a long and (most probably) boring stuff we Indonesians call ‘Curcol’ a.k.a ‘Curhat Colongan’, so, ladies and gentlemen, please fasten your seatbelt and enjoy the ride.
Remember my post all those months ago? About going to a university in Yogyakarta? (Actually it’s more like about Yogyakarta, and btw it’s been more than a year since I posted it, but oh well, who cares?) Important thing is, I got accepted. Damn, I was so freaking happy I cried when I saw my name on the list. Like what I said earlier though, it was not the most enjoyable ride to the top. You see, first of all I fail the National University Entrance Exam when that’s the only way for me to get this said university in Jogja. Boy, was I disapointed. And as if that weren’t torture enough, I fail all the other exams that were given by the other prestigious universities (ujian mandiri SIMAK, SMUP etc., if you’re an Indonesian, I know you get the idea). I took 4 of those tests, and all those universities just had to give out the result each a day, 4 days in a row. Which means for those 4 days, I receive rejection again and again. Oh dear.
But then, I took the 5th test, the ‘final’ test. My last chance if I still want to live my college life in this country where I was born in (well, getting shipped to Germany where my brother is would be extremely wonderful, but that’s another story). It was the International Programme Faculty of Medicine, Gadjah Mada University. I took the test, and I held my breath until the result is published around a month later (but not literally, of course). And there I saw my name. I was so happy I cried (yes, I’ve mentioned it, but I feel like telling you twice). That university is my dream university. Many of my friends prefer that one university whose faculty of medicine is in Salemba, Jakarta (again, you’ll get it if you’re an Indonesian) but honestly, I don’t. I used to say to my parents that I feel like I belong in Jogja. I want to move from this crowded, hectic city, away to somewhere more remote and friendly. And voila, here I am.
It’s going to be a total LIE if I say that I don’t miss my hometown. Yes, Jekardah is really annoying most of the time, it’s hectic, it’s hot, polluted, and everything’s more expensive there than it is here. But it is my birthplace. My longing to go back to that city every once in a while is completely justified.
All those things aside (talking back to fanfiction-centered stuff, shall we?) the reason for my lack of update lies in the hectic-ness of my new life here. No, I don’t spend 24/7 studying, of course, rather, I dare say that I’m quite my lazy-usual-self. I eat, sleep, watch korean dramas, read some fanfics and mangas, then spare some leftover time to study, but after all those long months without writing anything, I feel like my writing skill is getting rusty. I opened my fanfics and I cringe at how crappy they are. I know that I will always fall into the same hole again and again in term of writing stuff. I’ll just hate them after a few months I posted them. But after more than a whole year? And things will just be easy if I acquire new skills in writing, problem is, I realize that my skill now is even worse than how it used to be. Then how am I supposed to not be frustrated?
But hey, I think writing this crazy rambling kind of help me getting the hang of it back. Yeah, after all, I write this not because I hope some random people will be interested to read (which is least likely), rather, I type this to get the rusts off my fingers. Ahh, it feels so damn good to hear those clicking sounds my keyboard makes. My dearest readers who are patient enough to read all these crappy nonsense, I dare not promise you this, but I think it won’t take another month or two until I’m back to updating my stories in ff.net? 🙂
until the next time we meet,
p.s. I know this is 3 months late, but yoroshiku onegaishimasu, Kota Pelajar. Guess I’ll be spending the next 4-5 years with you. 🙂